So... feeling a little frustrated on this Sunday afternoon....
I just feel overwhelmed and I feel like there is never a break for the mom. I did sleep in a little bit yesterday, but why is it that my 'me' time always ends up just being resting or sleeping so that I can function for the rest of the week?
I can't remember the last time I had time to just do something for myself. Wander the mall. Get a pedicure. Even my last hair cut appointment (which is normally 'me' time) ended up with me having the kids there and helping them do their homework while the Drew (my wonderful and amazing hairdresser) was trying to work around them. I'm even cancelling time with my friends either because I need to work or because I feel guilty because I've been at work and I should be at home.
I feel like I work. And then I cook and clean. And I keep the house ready to be shown. And I sleep. And maybe I watch some TV (mostly because I am too tired to do much of anything else).
And then I repeat the above.
And I am grumpy. (And then I grump at my kids and at my husband and at the whole world, which just adds to the joy of the whole situation)
So right now, I am going to cook some meals for the week. And I am going to finish the work that I need to get done before tomorrow. And then I might try to finish putting the laundry away and do a few other chores around the house (the guinea pig cage is waiting rather impatiently for me). And then, just like usual, another weekend will have gone by where I have had not one minute to do anything that I really wanted to do.
I am trying to Embrace this part of my life, but I just feel like there isn't anything left of me to embrace anyone or anything.
I thought maybe writing this down would make it better, but.... not really.
Good night all.
Clane in charge.
12 hours ago